Sunday, January 29, 2017

7 years later...

I can't believe it has been a year since I have written in this space. Today marks the 7 year anniversary of Logan's passing. It is always a day full of emotions both happy and sad. This dsy brings up a lot of raw hurt and emotions that I've spent years suppressing and overcoming. It can be written and said a million times but it is so true, you never get over the loss of a child. You learn how to live with it.

Logan's memory and his name all these years later is often said in our home. He is acknowledged and fully loved as part of our family. His place in our home and our hearts can never be filled. Even his little sister Hannah knows who he is and loves him. She talks about him all the time. She is 4 and doesn't fully understand why baby Logan can't come back. I was collecting baby donations for Oh My Baby all this month. Hannah kept asking questions and why we are giving all this stuff away. I tell her we donate these items in Logan's memory. I tried to explain that it makes mommy and and daddy feel good on such a sad day to focus on something positive and happy by helping others. Hannah burst into tears. She tells me through sobs and tears falling down her face..,"but Mommy I don't want to give Logan's memory away. I want to keep it. He lives in my heart and I love him." Oh my how hard it was to explain this concept to a 4 year old. I love her innocents and compassion.

I also wanted to announce to those who still follow this blog. We are expecting our 6th child in late July. The kids are especially very excited about it.

Our goal this year was 7 completed baby bags (they have a list of what each bag needs to have) to donate today. We had a very good response from our friends this year and actually collected enough items for 8 bags!! We also have some extra diapers to donate as well. We look forward to dropping these bags off tomorrow. We have 4 boy and 4 girl bags. I hope these bags are a blessing to others.