3 weeks 2 days

I went back to work this weekend. I had so much anxiety I thought I was going to throw up when I walked through the doors. Almost everyone knows why I was gone, and I was not looking forward to getting those "I feel sorry for you" looks and "I don't know what to say" comments. I know it is awkward and people want to say something to show they care. Oh well, I got though it and after the first few hours I was okay. The end of shift on Saturday I was given a gift from all my co-workers. It was so pretty it made me cry. I hate crying in front of people. They ordered a very nice wind chime with an angel at the bottom of it with his name on it. It was very touching and wonderful to know that people care enough about me and my family to go out of their way for us. I still have people sending us cards and gifts. Our grand total on the Memorial fund is $1,170 THAT IS AMAZING! His headstone was $2,550 so we are very close to meeting the pay off amount when it comes in. I paid for the 1st half of the headstone on my EVIL credit card, that was not so evil when I really needed it!. Thank you everyone who has blessed my family!

Jacob was suppose to go for some test over night in the hospital today, but I called and talk with the doctor and canceled it until he is feeling better. all 3 kids are sick again. Jacob is congested with a nasty cough again and the doctor and I agreed that it is best to way so we do not have false positive test results.

I just got off the phone with the kids' pediatrician about Ava. I was told on Friday that her blood works had crystoids or something in it, that is a sign of parasites, but her stool sample was negative. She has been sick on and off with this really infected smelling diarrhea for well over a month with vomiting and abdominal pain. She gets better then worse every few days. So because the blood work is showing that she may have some kind of parasite even though the poop does not, they are going to put her on a 3 day course of an antiparasitic anyway. She is on a good day today. Last night she told me her tummy hurt, but no vomit and she poop on the carpet this morning and it was formed! Yes, she think she can poop on the carpet like a dog or something she wakes up before me every morning and does it!

Babies are starting to cry again, I get to feed both by myself this feeding so I better get busy. Ava is barking in the hall pretending she is a dog and eating scooby snacks.